Always Fighting for the Love of My Life

Edward J. Demyan; Pancreatic Cancer Victim; Supported and written by MaryKaye Mackulin, who loved him.
RIP my sweet man ... 1963 - 2011

Monday, August 29, 2011

Tribute To a Great Man and Some of Ed's own Words

Thank you Terry for writing this tribute to Ed.  He was an amazing person and I'm missing him more than words can express.

Well, it appears the link will not work...  I, of course, do not know how to fix that..  so, if you just go to, you can google Ed's name, and this article should pop up.

Yesterday, was by far, one of the worst days to date...  I knew this would happen, but truly thought I'd handle it better than this.  There are several of us who need to get his final arrangements finished so we can move forward and just let things be...  It is definitely not happening fast enough, but again, we know that the legalities of such matters take time.  Time right now is not my friend, I want to fast-forward to a point where the constant pain in my chest is much less and that only good things are remembered.  However, I also know that one should never wish away time because my sweet Edward surely didn't get enough of that.

Addendum 8/30/2011:   As I was looking through old e-mails from Ed, I found the following...  The relief I felt after reading his words cannot even be explained...  This was at a time very early in our relationship and Dar & Hal thought we were moving just a little too fast, LOL.  Enjoy!

Wednesday, June 14, 2006 10:58 AM

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"Good morning my beautiful woman. I was just thinking about what you had said Hal & Darlene had felt. I started to feel a little bit sad but that is their feelings and they are entitled to them. It made me take a minute and view what they see from their eyes. So that is what I tried to do and I can see how they feel that we are moving so fast and that this may be just an infatuation. What I don't think they realize is that we have discussed just about everything and that we know that our lives have many complicated factors. We often say how scary this is. For me I try to live my life one day at a time and if I tried to tackle every issue at once I would drive myself crazy. That doesn't mean to say I don't care about the future or want to address the future. I can only prepare for the future the best I can. As I look back at these last 2 months with you I can honestly say to you and to myself that you and I have addressed the issues that have come up and may come up. You and I haven't hurried into decisions and always talk them out. Unlike if we were younger, we know things will not always be perfect and I think I can speak for both of us by saying that when obstacles come up we don't run away. What Hal & Darlene's concerns are is what great friends do. They want to look out for your best interests and make sure you have looked at all scenarios. As for me, I love you so much. You are my trusted best friend, my partner, my lover and everything I could ever want in a person. You are who you are and I love that. I would never want to make you do anything you would not want to do yourself. I'm glad I can be so open with you and know in my heart and in my mind that you came into my life for a reason. I may not know the exact reason only that you have made me whole. Your EJD XO "

What can I say - we were truly best friends from the very beginning, we took our time getting to know each other extremely well from Jan. thru April of 2006 - thinking only a friendship was developing, little did we know that it would turn into so much more - but turn it did, into something even more extraordinary than a great friendship - it was my honor to be all to him that he was to me... as he stated..."trusted best friend, partner, lover and everything I could ever want in a person".   My future was so wrapped up in this man and our love, that I will remain quite lost for sometime to come...  But never would I change one single minute with this man. 


  1. MK, I was able to read the tribute. I just C&P it. What a wonderful tribute to an amazing man. I know that his legacy will live on through you. I continue to keep you, your daughter, and Ed's family and friends in my prayers....for healing. It is not anything you will ever get over, but the pain will become less in time.
    Thank you for sharing your feelings and thoughts with us on this blog.

  2. P.S. MK.....What a beautiful bride you would have been! The love between you and your dear Edward is all over your faces. Thank you again for sharing such personal feelings.


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